Worry, worry, worry.

Listening to Pretty Lights, late Saturday night, early Sunday morning...residents just starting to get in. Alcohol still fresh in their system. I have an incident report to write, but still I don't write it. What is wrong with me? What is wrong with the world?

As I sat outside and talked to Chris tonight, and we chatted about life, love, relationships, and the rest of this goddamn universe, I took a vow tonight that forever as long as I live on this earth, I will do my best to never, ever hurt another human being. Never. I realized tonight that I know too many beautiful, talented, and amazing people in my life that have been put through so much shit, that I wonder if karma is to blame in all of this.

All my friends are incredible beings in their own right..none of them deserve what's happened to them, what they've had to endure, the pain that they've suffered. Not even the bad people of this earth deserve to have bad stuff done to them. Why do good people have to deal with bad shit? I can't answer that, and it makes my heart hurt to see what these friends of mine deal with, but yet I marvel at how strong they still remain, at how brave they've been through everything, and yet they still go on with their lives with a smile on their face and let their beautiful hearts shine through their everyday actions.

I can't stand it. I can't. I hate to see the pain in people's eyes. It's almost as if I can feel that suffering that they feel, and I put it on myself. I love my friends too much to watch them go through everything alone. And so from this point forward, I refuse to let any of my actions be completed without putting love into everything, and to always lend my shoulder, ear, and heart to anyone and everyone who might need that little bit of comfort when need be.

I sit here and contemplate this world, my life, my future, my present, my beliefs. I soak it all in. I want to give love, have love, be love. There are too many people in pain, too many good people that don't deserve what happens to them. I want to be the love that they know will always be there, I want to be that solace and comfort. And so I will be, and so I will let my heart's light shine for those who might have lost their way.