A brief summary of the past several months...


January: Trying to forget.
February: Learning to love again.
March: Sleeping in new hope.

And as for the rest of the months ahead, I only foresee good things on the horizon. I'm not just in love with my friends and with my life, but with the opportunity and good fortune that presents itself to every smiling soul with hope in their hearts and a positive attitude in their mind. I'm also in love with a boy who stepped into my life at just the right time - I know I've talked about him a little bit in recent posts, but I can't help but slip in these words of positivity towards my current relationship. I feel so happy and proud that I not only can say that I have a boyfriend, but that I can say I have a boyfriend who just happens to be the wonderful one I've got now, and I get to experience all the wonderful things about him day-by-day. I realize how much I love him as the hours roll on, and things only seem to be looking up. I can honestly say that I only see good things in the future for the both of us, and regardless of what our future holds for us individually, I know that as a unit we will most definitely go far.

I've also come to realize that the more love you give, the more love you receive and become. We are all made up of so much love, and so when we share it with those around us, it becomes an endless cycle of happiness and joy. 


As I came into this year in a somewhat tumultuous state of presence, I couldn't help but notice myself lacking the one thing I wanted the most - love. And peace. Above anything else, I wanted peace in my life where I knew that wherever I was, I would feel ok with the things in my life going on around me. I'd worked the entire year of 2010 to get myself to a better state of mind, and it was crazy how something so little as a missed connection could make me feel as if everything I worked for had been for nothing in the end. But as the month of January came to a close, I began to realize that right in front of my eyes was something (or rather, someone) who had been there in the background silently, and as we drove out to Red Bud and Mt. Bonnell that February evening, something in my heart clicked - I knew that good things would come of that night.


And so on the 5th of February, 2011, I fell in love again. And not just with any boy, but with someone who I know loves me back for everything I am. I'm such a weird individual, and so the fact that I can be weird around and with him and for him the same back to me, well..it puts a smile on my face knowing that I can just be ..."me." He loves me for me!! What an awesome feeling! After months of thinking that nothing would ever come of things between him and I, and having the hugest crush ever, that crush actually turned into reality, and I'm so glad I didn't just stop at the stairs like I usually did after we'd been hanging out and it was time to say goodbye. I'm so glad that we talked more about life and everything and as the night unfolded, so did our feelings. 


I'm so happy to have found such an awesome individual as C - I haven't felt this happy in so long. And as the days roll on, so does my appreciation for living such a beautiful life. I've got too much to be happy for these days to see my life any other way.


Never forget that love is all around you, and it's up to you if you want to reach out and make it yours. Give love, receive love, be love. It's easy if you try :)


xo
Jardin